Flashbacks

This has been a rather rough week for me and it's not looking to get a lot better anytime soon, though I am starting to get past the first shock of it.

To make a long story short, a full-time position in the library has been cut from next year's budget. It's a shock, it's a surprise, and I think it wasn't entirely intentional. But the deed is done and can't be un-done.

The position cut is the Library Assistant position. This position has been open since January/Februrary. I've been actively looking to fill the position since that time. I'd done 3 interviews already and had 2 more lined up within the next week when I got the word that the position didn't even exist.

There are a lot of slightly odd things about this decision that add to my conviction that this was a decision that was made based on a miscommunication of some type. The only other possibility would be that someone had it out for the library, but I'm far from believing that of the people involved.

Beyond the shock of the announcement itself, it has brought back a lot of the memories and emotions of the 2004-05 year when I was the only non-student working in the library 9 out of 12 months in the year. I'm not sure but what that hasn't been more depressing and stressful than the actual news.

Thankfully, I will have MG working in the library next year, so I won't be entirely on my own as I was then. She's already helped me with starting to put together an overview of what will happen to the library without the Library Assistant position filled. I hope to have the initial draft to the point that I can present it to superiors next week so they can have a realistic understanding of what may not get done over the summer and through the next year.

Please be praying for me and the library!