When the world's not right

There are some days I feel completely insensitive and socially inept. This evening has definitely been that.

When I showed up in one of the classrooms that I thought I had reserved for a library session this evening, I found someone else there that also believed she had the room reserved. She was only meeting with one other person and was able to change their meeting location. But I was blaming myself for not confirming the reservation and felt bad for having to ask them to move.

Not even two hours later, I called cousins(?) to ask about visiting this weekend only to discover they had just (within the hour) brought home a relative with a case of terminal cancer. I felt bad just for calling up in a friendly, happy mood and for not taking time to ask about their situation before asking about a visit. Especially since I knew before I called that he had been in the hospital for the last week or so.

And now I just want to go home. I need to pack for my trip tomorrow. But there is a student worker who is late for work, so I'm the only one here at the moment. I think I'll say a prayer that I don't say anything I'll regret and see if he is in his room.